Shit happens…and so does life

These last couple of months have been wrought with anticipation and change. We are on the verge of a new beginning and within the next few weeks, I will be able to share that with you. Until then, I am determined to continue on this blog.

I feel terrible that I haven’t posted in a while. This was to be my accountability and I have not been very accountable for myself lately. That being said, I give myself grace. It’s ok. I’m still here, and I’m still willing to change and move forward and work towards the goals I set for myself on 1/11.

Take the first step in faith. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.

Martin luther king, jr.

Therefore, I move forward. It’s not possible to move backwards. There’s no reason standing still because the persistent wall of life will keep inching you forward whether you resist it or not. Why not just take off running? Let life catch up with YOU!

I am in charge of my life. I choose my actions. I choose my mindset and my attitude. I completely believe in the power of positive thinking. I think if we are able to show kindness to others, we must show kindness to ourselves. We must believe we are worthy of goodness and happiness. I’m sorry, because I realize this is a pretty inspirationally cheesy post, but it’s good to share it. Someone out there needs to hear it.

“The time is now. Stop hitting the snooze button on your life.”

mel robbins

It snowed!! Well, sorta…

It’s been a great Saturday. We got the kids back last night and I needed last night and today after this week. They bring a lot of joy to our lives. Hectic, teenage joy.

Sometimes the weeks are really hard. Teaching takes a lot out of me.
There are days I don’t really feel like being cheerful, but I have to, because my mood and my attitude reflects back at me. Especially from 4 and 5 year olds. They are counting on me to make the day “not boring” as I hear sometimes.
Do you know how hard it is to smile when that’s the last thing you feel like doing? I also let the kids know when I’m having an off day because they are going to figure it out anyway. It’s amazing what honesty and kindness can do, even with the youngest of scholars. Fake it til you make it. Old reliable.

I go to sleep every Sunday night nervous about Monday. Same class, same kids, new week. What was their weekend like? Do they want to be back at school? How hard is it going to be? It’s an emotionally demanding job and unfortunately I don’t deal with it as well as I could.

“You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart…I’ll always be with you.”

A.A. Milne

This leads to what inspired me to start this blog. I needed a place to have a voice. It’s been easy to lose mine over the years and I have.

Here, I can tell my story without interruption.
Here, I can be myself.
Here, we can build a community to support one another through our goals.

My first mission is one I need to really get a jump on because I have a large goal to lose at least 50 lbs by the end of my 11 months. My friends, I am an emotional eater.
I am terrible about this. I need to figure out what I can do to put myself on the right track. I need friends and support and a venue to vent, share good information and recipes and other positive forms of encouragement.

I don’t know where to start. I plan on doing a little research. If anyone recommends any books or blogs, let me know!

Well, I have a little bit of time left before the clocks turns over a new day, so I may cross stitch a little bit. Sound familiar? Til next time…

Round 2 – Fight!

“Life is amazing. And then it’s awful. And then it’s amazing again. And in between the amazing and awful it’s ordinary and mundane and routine. Breathe in the amazing, hold on through the awful, and relax and exhale during the ordinary. That’s just living heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life. And it’s breathtakingly beautiful.”

l. r. knost

I’ve had those awful years. The ones where everything that can go wrong does. Murphy’s Law holding us down and repeatedly kicking us.

However, let’s face it. Most of our years, if we are lucky, are the mundane ones. I’ve been living a very mundane life lately. I’m happy, don’t get me wrong, but with Covid these last couple of years making safety and health our top priorities, they have been fairly ordinary.

I’ve picked back up a couple of hobbies, including cross stitching – be prepared to hear a LOT about that.
I’ve grown into a new hobby – board gaming, and we aren’t talking Monopoly.
But I’ve also grown very complacent. Sure I’ve done some amazing things that I’m proud of, but I’ve let myself get too lazy – bottom line.

I need to tackle laziness. Word. That’s it – truly.

It was a good day. I had my 3rd vocal lesson today. Yes, I’m taking vocal lessons because I LOVE to sing – did you know that about me? My instructor says I’m the first female she’s heard that has hit the low notes on Creep. I take that as a compliment!

I could go on, but I really want to go cross stitch. So I shall.

Peace out.

And so it begins…


Here it goes. I’ve always had a love of writing and while I often times stumble over words as they come out of my mouth, they flow from my fingertips like honey from a freshly opened bottle.

Ok, that was a bit much, I agree, but you get the point, even with the unnecessary simile.

This is my journey. It begins today. I give myself 11 months to better myself in as many ways possible.

This will be a journey to find my peace within my relationships.
This will be a journey to find my peace with food and exercise.
This will be a journey to find my peace at my work and at home.
But most of all, this will be a journey to find my peace with myself.

“The only impossible journey is the one you never begin.”

Tom robbins

I invite you along on this journey. I hope to encourage, grow, learn, and be open along the way.

Ok, now that I’ve got all that inspirational bullshit out of the way, here’s the dealio.
This is totally new to me. You will likely see a LOT of changes to this site as I learn how to use it. I’ve attempted a craft blog before, but I’ll save that one for another time.

Here, you’ve got the real me. I don’t know if I will post every day but I will do my best to keep up.

Today, I ate an apple. I took Indy to training, and I made it through a day with my Pre-K class. On top of that, I got my blog published. I call this day a success.
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